As I still lie upon my bed, I could feel my eyes weakened. My body felt cold, feeling dizzy, light headed. Its only been months, but it felt like years. The winds kissed my face as I slowly recall my past memories I closed my eyes and I felt my life taken away. The wind whispers to me as the surrounding was nothing but silence…
“Hey, why so gloomy?”
“Huh?”
“Cheer up!”,
She approached me as I was just sitting down in the lounge, and all I had was a frown in my face. It wasn’t nice to share one’s depression, but I couldn’t control myself. “Smile!”, she told me. I tried but I ended up showing her a ridiculous look, my cheeks were sore and tightened up as I kept on trying. She giggled, and I started to feel a bit warm, I tried my best to put on a smile and just said
“… thanks.”
“Hehe, what happened to you, are you alright?”
“Yeah, I think?”
“Are you sure?”
“Quite.”
“You don’t seem okay…”
“Trust me, I’m fine. Its just not my day, give me some time.”
“Okay, I understand. You can always let us know, everyone’s been looking at you.”
“Oh, really? I’ve never noticed, I’ll be fine, nothing to worry about.”
“Great. Well I got to go, see you around. Remember to smile!”
She then patted me on the shoulder and left. I gave a soft “bye.” as I stared at her slowly prancing away in joy. I’ve always envied these cheerful people. I grow jealous of people who can easily forget their past, while it seems to be scarred into my blood and constantly drown my endless nights with pessimistic thoughts. Snapping back to where I was, I decided it was time to leave for home.
“I’m back from college!” that’s a phrase I could never use, no one was home. I threw my bags aside together with my work, turned on the computer and just sat on my chair lazily. I thought to myself, “I gotta change, this isn’t exactly the life anyone would want.” I logged into my Windows Live Messenger, checked my Facebook and so on. I hovered the mouse over some entertainment, but decided not to even double click. Entertainment wasn’t what I needed anymore, though that’s what I do and spend time on almost half of my high school life. I messaged her,
Kurt : Hey.
Casey : hello!
Kurt : Sorry ‘bout today, can’t control myself.
Casey : oh its ok, wat happen?
Kurt : Its nothing, just some thoughts about the past.
Casey : oh ok, then just try to forget abt it
Kurt : Yeah, doing my best.
Casey : anyway I gtg… bye!
Kurt : Oh, okay. Bye.
That wasn’t exactly a smooth move.
Posted by Malicious M
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